SGT CH132: Extra

132 if Extra: If Mu Si was the one turned into a zombie

◎ Just bite him to death. Mu Si opened his mouth and bit X’s shoulder. ◎

Mu Si didn’t want to hear X’s negation of him.

Even if he wasn’t moved to tears and didn’t love him more because of it, at least he shouldn’t be negated.

“Whether I should have done it or not, only I can decide.”

He couldn’t just watch the person he loved die.

Besides…

“You could use a psychic crystal nucleus to save your teammate when they were infected. Why can’t I use my psychic crystal nucleus to save you? Is our relationship not even as good as yours with your teammate?”

Towards the end, Mu Si’s words couldn’t help but carry a sting.

He didn’t actually want to bring up that matter.

He knew X loved him, and only him.

But, since X could go to such lengths for an ordinary teammate, he shouldn’t deny his love for him at this time.

“How can that be the same? What you gave was your own crystal nucleus! Your own ability!”

X hung his head low, pressing a trembling hand against his heart.

For an ability user, their own crystal nucleus and ability were no different from life itself.

Mu Si’s action was equivalent to exchanging his own life for his.

And Mu Si’s words reminded him again.

Mu Si gave him his own crystal nucleus, entrusting his life and future to him, yet he gave the crystal nucleus Mu Si needed to someone else.

How disappointed must Mu Si have been with him then?

He had failed Mu Si’s love.

Mu Si had loved him so deeply, staking everything on his own crystal nucleus and future to get him back.

But he, unknowingly, had failed this love.

X’s heart felt as if it were being torn apart by knives, his whole body trembling with pain.

The hand pressing on his heart tightened continuously, fingertips digging into his skin, blood flowing out.

“X!”

Mu Si was startled and quickly grabbed his hand, stopping him from continuing to hurt himself.

Was X’s self-harm acting up again?

“X, wake up!”

X looked up at him, his bloodshot eyes taking in Mu Si’s anxious face.

His body ached terribly, but his mind had never been clearer.

He knew exactly what he should do.

He had to return the future that he had occupied, plundered, the future that originally belonged to Mu Si, back to him.

“I am very clear. Si Si, stay away, don’t get your clothes dirty.”

Stay away from what?

Don’t get clothes dirty from what?

They were on the bed in the bedroom; where was there anything that could get clothes dirty?

Mu Si saw the bloodstains flowing from under X’s fingers that were digging into his chest and suddenly realized something.

“No! Are you crazy? It’s on your heart; taking out the crystal nucleus will kill you!”

“No, I have body enhancement and healing abilities. I’ll be fine. I can repair myself before I’m on the verge of death.”

X looked at Mu Si seriously, his tone unhurried, calmly and earnestly explaining to him that he wouldn’t die from taking out the crystal nucleus.

Mu Si was furious.

However, he thought the one who was truly crazy was X.

“I don’t need any crystal nucleus, don’t act on your own!”

Mu Si was so angry he became incoherent.

“Do you think if you return the crystal nucleus to me, we’ll be even? Do you think you can separate from me at any time like that?”

X’s eyes filled with pain.

How could he want to separate from Mu Si.

He owed Mu Si a debt he could never repay.

It wasn’t as simple as taking someone’s ability and crystal nucleus at the beginning of the apocalypse and then returning a crystal nucleus four or five years later to call it even.

How could a life-saving item in a moment of mortal danger be the same as a relinquished return during a time of worry-free life?

He could never repay it.

But not being able to repay it and doing nothing were two different things.

“Si Si, you need an ability. You’ve always wanted to have an ability again.”

X focused on Mu Si, his gaze showing a gentleness never so exposed before.

“No… it’s not like that.”

Mu Si denied subconsciously.

He did want to have an ability again, but not in this way.

He never thought about taking the crystal nucleus back from X’s body.

Even if that crystal nucleus called to him day and night, attracted him.

The crystal nucleus had always wanted to return to his body, but he had never agreed.

Just a short while ago, he had refused it.

Mu Si suddenly remembered that when he refused the psychic ability in his heart, the psychic ability had transmitted his thoughts into X’s mind.

The psychic ability knew he wouldn’t take it back, so it used this method to lay everything bare before X.

He was played by his own former ability.

But at the moment the psychic ability transmitted his thoughts, Mu Si vaguely grasped something.

As early as when he recovered consciousness from the empty-headed zombie state, he had established a connection with the psychic ability.

And at that moment, the connection became clearer.

“Wait, I think I can…”

While holding X’s hand to prevent his self-harm, Mu Si sank his mind to search, finding the connection between himself and the psychic ability.

【I can use the psychic ability.】

Mu Si’s thought was transmitted into X’s mind through the psychic connection.

X looked up in astonishment, meeting Mu Si’s eyes.

It worked!

Mu Si was overjoyed.

“See, you don’t need to return the crystal nucleus to me, I can use the ability too.”

Mu Si was overjoyed.

“As long as you are by my side, I can mobilize and use the ability through the psychic connection.”

So, there was no need to dig out the crystal nucleus.

Finally finding a solution, Mu Si gave X a brilliant smile.

“You will always be by my side, right?”

“Of course…”

X was still a bit dazed, not quite understanding what had happened.

But he did hear Mu Si’s voice.

And he felt Mu Si’s mobilization of the ability within his body.

Mu Si could use his body’s ability through some unique connection.

This seemed…

X wavered slightly.

He certainly believed that returning the crystal nucleus to Mu Si was the best choice.

It was Mu Si’s thing, it should belong to Mu Si.

But Mu Si didn’t accept it.

Forcing it would scare Mu Si.

Doing it like this wasn’t impossible either.

Anyway, he would always be by Mu Si’s side, protecting Mu Si…

“Then there’s no problem. As long as you accompany me, I can use the ability, and you can protect me too.”

Mu Si looked up at X, his magnificent red eyes shining brightly.

X met Mu Si’s eyes. That beautiful yet piercing red color was like a basin of cold water poured over him, extinguishing all his fantasies and waking him up instantly.

No, he couldn’t protect Mu Si.

He had failed to protect Mu Si.

He was an incompetent protector.

His negligence and dereliction of duty caused Mu Si to be scratched and infected by a zombie right beside him, making Mu Si “die” in front of him.

How could he still believe he could protect Mu Si well?

“I’m sorry.”

X said in a low voice.

Mu Si was baffled.

Was he apologizing for the crystal nucleus matter?

“Nothing is more important than you,” Mu Si said.

X stared at Mu Si blankly.

Before seeing Mu Si’s memory, he never thought Mu Si loved him so much.

Even after seeing the memory, he only dared to believe that such love was only in the past.

After he had failed Mu Si’s love, the love disappeared.

It should have disappeared.

But Mu Si told him that nothing was more important than him.

Mu Si still loved him deeply.

But for him, too, nothing was more important than Mu Si.

He was about to fail this long-desired love again.

X’s eyes reddened, a heat rising in them, but he forced himself not to show a fragile and不堪 (unbearable) appearance.

“I’m sorry.”

He said again, gently pushing Mu Si back.

Mu Si vaguely realized something and wanted to get closer to grab X’s hand, but mutant plants wrapped around him from all directions, restraining him.

More mutant plants wove a dense and impenetrable net in front of him, standing between him and X, completely blocking X from view.

A strong and sweet smell of blood suddenly spread.

So fragrant that it made Mu Si’s mind dazed, his head dizzy, and he instinctively wanted to pounce forward.

But then, intense fear and panic spread from his body, suppressing the appetite generated by his zombie instinct.

Mu Si suddenly sobered up.

He couldn’t believe what he was thinking, but everything pointed to that one answer, leaving him no choice but to believe.

“X!!!”

Mu Si almost lost his mind, pouncing forward madly.

The mutant plants didn’t dare to truly hurt him, loosening their strength, letting him fall onto the net woven from vines.

The vine net was like a wall, standing firm in front of him, not wavering a bit.

They even spread rapidly to both sides until they completely sealed off all paths, splitting the entire room in half.

“X, you can’t do this… I will hate you! I will really hate you!”

Mu Si clung to the vine wall, scratching and pulling at the vines crazily.

Suddenly, the vine wall loosened, a large hole separated in the middle, and Mu Si fell forward due to inertia.

He was caught.

By X’s arm.

Mu Si looked up in a daze, only seeing X’s shirt stained red with blood over a large area, and his brain went dizzy again.

X pursed his lips tightly, holding his arm out stiffly, supporting Mu Si with his clean hand, not daring to let him touch his body.

Mu Si endured the dizziness, swatted away X’s arm, and pounced, tearing open the coat X had pulled together in a futile attempt to cover up.

The body underneath was crimson red starting from the heart, blood flowing down to his waist, disappearing into his waistband.

But the skin was intact, the same futile attempt at concealment.

The strong smell of blood stimulated Mu Si’s senses, and he cried uncontrollably.

“I hate you… I hate you…”

X was silent for a long time, then managed to raise his relatively clean left hand and loosely embraced Mu Si.

He had already anticipated this.

As soon as he acted against Mu Si’s wishes, he had foreseen the consequences.

But Mu Si himself, Mu Si’s safety, was greater than everything.

Its importance was even far greater than Mu Si’s love for him.

He didn’t trust that he could protect Mu Si well.

Compared to him, he hoped more that Mu Si himself would possess an ability, the ability to protect himself forever.

He also knew his insistence would hurt Mu Si.

Mu Si might be sad for a while because of this, but when this period passed, when he walked out of the shadow, he would break out of his cocoon and become a butterfly.

He would become a tall and handsome poplar.

Not a weak and powerless dodder flower.

He would have a splendid and brilliant life.

As for him, the person who once failed and hurt him, he would also be gradually forgotten by Mu Si.

Under the erosion of time, he would not cause a single ripple in Mu Si’s life.

X gently held Mu Si’s wrist and pressed the transparent crystal nucleus against it.

Mu Si sensed something and abruptly flung X’s hand away.

Intense heat came from his wrist, and a brilliant white light flared.

After the light faded, the room was deathly quiet.

Mu Si’s shoulders slumped, he hung his head and stared at the faint, almost disappearing scar on his wrist, saying nothing.

X raised his hand wanting to comfort him, but before he could touch him, he saw the slight tremble of his shoulder, full of resistance.

He silently withdrew his hand.

“Get out.”

Mu Si said hoarsely: “I don’t want to see you.”

X paused, then slowly moved his legs that seemed to have lost all feeling, silently getting up.

The moment he got out of bed and stood up, a wave of dizziness hit his brain; his limbs were cold and weak from excessive blood loss.

He raised his hand to hold his head, stood there for a moment, then forced himself to walk out.

Mu Si abruptly turned his head, biting his lip and glaring at his back.

Having regained the psychic ability, he could clearly perceive X’s emotions.

Relief, pain, dead silence.

As if he were about to die.

He was like he was preparing to go to his death.

“Stop! You come back here!”

Mu Si glared at his back and said.

X’s footsteps paused slightly, he slowly turned around, and under Mu Si’s gaze, walked slowly to the bedside, standing there rigidly, waiting for his sentence.

Mu Si looked at his pale face, feeling extremely uncomfortable.

He wanted to pull him onto the bed.

But the bed was full of blood, not suitable for rest at all, and it would give Mu Si an untimely appetite.

He got out of bed, grabbed X, wanting to walk out.

The icy touch of his hand made him pause.

Saying he had healing abilities and would be fine, yet his body temperature dropped to this extent, even he, a zombie, felt cold.

And still forcing himself to pretend nothing was wrong.

Mu Si was both angry and heartbroken, wanting to have a big fight with X, to point at his nose and scold him.

But meeting X’s deep and silent eyes, he knew X wouldn’t argue with him at all; he would only silently accept everything he gave, whether it was harm or something else.

Mu Si was extremely distressed and turned to hug him gently.

“Last time. If you dare to do something like this again, I will never forgive you.”

X was in a period of slow thinking after having his psychic ability stripped away. He was stunned for a good while before realizing that Mu Si meant he was forgiven this time.

“Si Si?”

X was incredulous, tentatively reaching out to embrace Mu Si’s shoulder, and was not rejected.

So, he hugged tighter.

Mu Si smelled the rich scent of blood in X’s embrace, still very angry, wanting to punch him.

But in X’s current state, it felt like one punch would knock him unconscious.

Couldn’t punch him, couldn’t scold him.

Frustrated, Mu Si opened his mouth and bit X’s shoulder.

Just bite him to death.