MCL CH41

Chapter 041: Surrendering to Absolute Desire…

His mouth was filled with the feeling of being invaded. What tore at his rationality even more was the ever-increasing wave of power in his surroundings.

It was as if a very keen perception was being stirred from the very depths, coming entirely from the most instinctive existence of this body. It was also at this moment that Lin Xi, for the first time, felt a very real difference from when he was human.

The power enveloping him seemed to be able to stir the desires suppressed deep within this body at any moment, constantly wanting more, and even more.

A sob escaped from between his tightly closed lips and teeth. Under the extremely tense voice, Lin Xi’s neck subconsciously arched back, outlining an extremely sexy curve.

Dense kisses fell from his lips, down along his delicate throat, and his entire body began to tremble distinctly.

Breaths mingled.

The entire space was filled with the thick sound of breathing, and it was impossible to tell whose was whose.

Lin Xi had discovered the abnormality of this body.

He strangely seemed to be able to synchronize with the feelings of those contaminants. His mind was clearly a mess, yet he could still clearly feel the intoxicating wave of power constantly drilling into every cell through the surface of his skin, sensitive to the extreme. This intense, maddening feeling almost made him repeatedly torn apart by his rationality.

At one point, he forgot to breathe. The continuous feeling of suffocation, however, gradually made him more and more excited.

He was no longer human.

This was probably the time Lin Xi felt this most clearly.

He knew that something was very wrong with him right now. That sensitive craving for the fluctuations of power was undoubtedly too strong. And Yan Xingzhou was also very wrong. The surging energy emanating from his surroundings was at one point somewhat uncontrollable. Under the constantly changing scenes, only the two, tightly locked in a kiss, became the clearest moving figures.

Without a doubt, everything was chaotic, chaotic to the extreme.

But even so, neither of them intended to stop.

The emotions that needed to be released had been suppressed for too long. Once they were out of control, the most suitable way for everything was to completely surrender to instinct.

Breaths continuously brushed against skin, continuous responses, continuous giving.

Under the large bed, every frame of the picture was undoubtedly a bit too messy, tossing and turning, over and over again.

Two men who could maintain absolute rationality at any time, at this moment, both chose to surrender to absolute desire.

All rational thinking was undoubtedly unnecessary at this time. Intermittently, they just kept calling each other’s names in low voices, their souls completely sinking along with them.

Constant flashes of light and shadow passed before his eyes. Lin Xi’s drooping red hair covered the expression on his face as he bit down on the man’s shoulder in retaliation.

The deep teeth marks carried a faint taste of blood. His breath seemed to pause at the same time. Then, as the fluctuations of power coiled around them exploded, their simultaneous low pants intertwined ambiguously in the surrounding air.

Two people, as if fished out of water, were pressed tightly together.

Lin Xi slowly lifted his drooping eyelashes and looked up to gently kiss Yan Xingzhou’s jaw.

One kiss after another, he was soon pulled over again. The world spun, and as his position changed again, he soon began to sink completely once more.

Chaos.

Loss of all reason.

No one knew how much time had passed, only that in the end, they had completely indulged in this constant repetition.

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By the time Lin Xi opened his eyes again, the next day’s sunlight was already seeping in from outside the window.

The surrounding environment was no longer changing. Through the halo of light from the floor-to-ceiling windows, what came into view was a scene of utter devastation.

The quilt on the bed had long been thrown to the floor, and the clothes were scattered in a disorderly mess. The soreness throughout his body made Lin Xi frown.

He was about to get up, and it was with this movement that he realized he was still being held in a broad embrace.

Yan Xingzhou’s voice came from above his head, still hoarse. “How did you sleep?”

Lin Xi lowered his eyelids, his gaze sweeping over the dense marks left on his body after one night. “…What do you think?”

“I slept well,” Yan Xingzhou said, lowering his head to place a light kiss on Lin Xi’s hair. His usually steady tone was clearly holding back a laugh. “I think this should be the best I’ve slept in three years.”

After the excessive indulgence, there was still a distinct throbbing pain in his head. Lin Xi struggled out of Yan Xingzhou’s embrace and was silent for a moment under the soreness all over his body. “If I were you, I wouldn’t classify the deep sleep caused by overdrawing my power as ‘sleeping well’.”

“The first thing you do when you wake up is to settle scores after the fact. That is indeed your style,” Yan Xingzhou did not refute. Seeing Lin Xi rubbing his temples with his hand, he frowned slightly. “Still have a headache?”

“A little,” Lin Xi’s focus was clearly not so easily diverted. After speaking, he continued, “Don’t try to change the subject. You should be very clear what this state means… mm.”

The rest of his words were blocked by a gentle kiss as a force pulled him back again.

Probably no one would have thought that a man like Yan Xingzhou could be so gentle when he kissed someone.

Although even so, the intensity of yesterday had more or less left mottled marks on both of their lips, the moment this breath covered them, it was still enough to be addictive.

His words came to an abrupt halt. Lin Xi’s lowered peripheral vision happened to glance at Yan Xingzhou’s sexy lips. The events of last night flashed through his mind. Vaguely, the lingering memory of pleasure seemed to make the cells in his body stir faintly again.

Like a strong temptation, it made him want to approach again in a trance. As his gaze lingered for a long time, he gradually moved closer and closer—

Beside his ear, Yan Xingzhou’s words at that moment seemed somewhat distant. “Don’t worry, I always know what I’m doing. I will absolutely not let anything unnecessary happen.”

The moment their eyes met, the surroundings suddenly fell silent.

“Your eyes…”

When Yan Xingzhou’s voice sounded again, Lin Xi also suddenly came back to his senses.

In a moment, he had already realized something. He pulled himself out of Yan Xingzhou’s embrace, bent down to pick up the shirt with the buttons torn off from the floor, casually threw it on, and strode out the door. “I’ll go back and wash up first. I’ll come find you in a bit.”

He could feel the gaze behind him remaining on his back, until it was finally cut off by the corner outside the door.

Lin Xi never looked back, his voice lowered to the extreme. “Shouldn’t you come out now? Was the show good?”

In the brief silence, that familiar voice sounded leisurely: [It was just so-so. After all, he was much calmer than I imagined.]

Lin Xi’s face showed no extra emotion. “You knew it would be like this.”

[Hee hee hee, who told you to be blinded by lust?]

The voice in his head sounded extremely innocent. [If you hadn’t done this to me for a man, I actually would have thought about reminding you. Unfortunately, you just knocked me out like that and didn’t give me a chance to speak at all.]

Lin Xi sneered, not believing a word of this thing’s nonsense.

In the blink of an eye, he had already reached his own room door. He pushed the door open and went straight to the bathroom.

The moment he entered, his footsteps came to an abrupt halt at the sight that fell into his eyes through the mirror.

Lin Xi stared fixedly at himself in the mirror and narrowed his eyes silently.

Suddenly, he let out a light laugh and caressed his own eyes with great interest. “Is Yan Xingzhou’s power so delicious that you just couldn’t control yourself and came out?”

In the mirror, it was still those magnificent heterochromatic eyes, but because the golden eyeball had completely turned crimson, they appeared even more demonic.

Just from the visual effect, it was a bit too beautiful.

It was just that no matter from which angle you looked at it, they no longer looked like a pair of human eyes.

This was not the first time Lin Xi had entered such a state.

It was just that the last time, it was a sudden mutation caused by using overly powerful contaminant energy, while now, it was from a strong craving for the power of an ability user.

“Will it often be like this in the future?” Lin Xi’s tone was still calm when he asked this.

[That I don’t know. After all, this is the first time I’ve experienced it.]

It seemed to have seriously considered it before answering again. [But you’re not human anymore anyway. In order to maintain your current form and not collapse, it’s normal to gradually become what a contaminant should look like~!]

“It seems I can only hope that this progress is not too fast.”

Lin Xi’s slender fingertips gently caressed the side of his pupils bit by bit, his smiling expression gradually taking on a bit of emotion. “This broken body, in some ways, is really troublesome.”

[With the situation three years ago, it’s good enough that you’re alive. Be content with what you have.]

The voice in his head had returned to its usual tone of wishing for chaos. [Although last night was your own doing, blinded by lust, but to be fair, those previous crystal cores were not even enough to fill the gaps between my teeth. If there wasn’t enough energy support, this body of yours really wouldn’t be able to hold on. It’s good now, temporarily saving the trouble of finding supplements, but—]

A very meaningful pause, then it continued: [You saw Yan Xingzhou’s expression just now, didn’t you? Oh my, what are you going to do now? Quickly think about how you’re going to explain it to your old lover!]

“What’s there to do? With him, I’ve never needed to explain.”

Lin Xi slowly stood up straight, casually closed the bathroom door, and took off the shirt that was casually hanging on his body.

Before long, the sound of trickling water covered the entire bathroom. He unhurriedly reminded, “Close your eyes.”

[Closed, closed.]

The voice in his head responded like this, clearly unable to understand Lin Xi’s calmness. [Looking at your attitude, are you really not worried at all that it will be difficult to explain to that someone?]

“No need to explain.”

Lin Xi casually ran a hand through his completely wet hair. The falling water dripped from his cheeks onto his thick eyelashes, and the curtain of water that formed covered the unfathomable expression in his heterochromatic eyes. “Haven’t you noticed yet? To this day, he hasn’t asked me once how I came back.”

[Eh? It seems you’re right. He didn’t even ask where I went.]

Lin Xi silently curled the corner of his lips. The surrounding world was instantly swallowed by a dense sound of water.

The Yan Xingzhou in his memory could always respond to all changes without batting an eye. But this time, he had willingly surrendered to the human instinct of avoidance when facing the unknown.

Lin Xi could probably guess Yan Xingzhou’s thoughts. After all, as long as you don’t ask, some things can temporarily be treated as non-existent.

Or perhaps this man had already guessed something long ago, but as long as he could come back, it was enough for him not to care about anything else.

But in fact, they both knew that some things, in the end, cannot be solved by idealism alone.

If they continued in a state where he didn’t say anything and Yan Xingzhou didn’t ask, how long could this whitewashed peace last?

In the end, in what way would the two of them stand before each other? It was truly, very curious indeed.

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